♥The News♥

My Sister calls this morning:
I, diden't answer
I, knew it was bad news cuz she never calls
and the 4th was yesterday and I'm away from the kids
and family..
I got up and put on the coffee.
knowing that when i make that return call,
its going to change my life.
ever get a life changen call??
Don said he knew something was up when she called his number.
Omy...
I, make the call
she's at work.
gotta love her stright to the point type person.
Crystal is dead!! she said.
I, said huh
Crystal Walker Is Dead.
lil D
found her...
that my bro sent me a e-mail to tell me (witch i never got)
but she coulden't let that happen.
It Broke me down.
After the post I, made yesterday.
I, don't regret my post.
I regret her and my brother left there son as a orphan.
that they chose drugs as pose to any thing for there only son.
my brother lives across the street said his step son was slippen in
around 2a.m woke him up.
He seen the police and the hurst over at her house.
from what i gather she, lil D and her friends had been at the river
riden 4wheelers partying and she diden't fell to good and left and went home.
later in the evening her room mate and lil D went home.
lil D went to wake his mother
To Find her dead...
he comes out tells the room mate they go in and see's she is dead.
and calls the police...
This is shocking news to me.
my brother get's up and gose over there to find out whats going on asking were lil D is???
crystals mother had come and got him.
Audie dosent think she wants him and will tire of him soon and will drop him off at his house..
Audie said the police treated it as a crime sceen.
vido typed all inside of the house.
her body was sent to okc for a ortopsy.
but apears to be a overdose.
crystal and damon my brother all ways said that lil D would go to Audie.
I Pray crystals mother dosent fight me on this matter.
the lil boy has been through Enough!!!
to louse both parents in a 6th mounth span.
Audie went on to tell me, that lil D has the same desise they had.
I, don't know what that is.
I'm sure ill be hearing more as time gose on.
Audie said the news did not saprize him one bit.
true she was on a down hill slide.
but it came as a shock to me.
I'm sorry that she never tryed to get to know Damon's family.
we loved her simply becuz he loved her.
no other reason.
No other reason nessery.
I don't think she killed her self on perpouse.
over weight, lotta drugs, the heat, the stress all combined.
what I, have to say to her family that ive never met.
when your saying your last good byes
think of how you treated me.
Shouting fucken grow up
you shouted to me in my deepest grife-
You Barred me, from my own brother's funral.
Think of me, how would you feel if i had a cop buddie-
that could tell you.
You gotta go now or go to Jail.
I'm sure your not giving me nor my brother any thought
what so ever.
ill remind you with the flowers I send.
This is not over.
This dose not in any way ease my pain.
I, don't take no satfiachashion in this.
in any form.
Other than I, cryed to Jesus Christ and he heard my cry.
I, pray every night the preacher that held my brother's service
wakes to my cry every time he closes his eyes.
even if it be for a short nap.
till he finds me, to say he was sorry for my pain.
How could you not be touched at such a time.
I, was Broken Still Broken had no shame in showing my grife.
Still no shame in my grife.
I'd lost my baby...
And them officers had tossed me out of his funral.
For the love of Jesus Christ Almighty.
That was WRONG!!!!
I still Cry and Pray Everyday...
till i'm justafied
Amen.

May The

May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind always be at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
and rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand.

Me Janie

I gotta be Me!
Everyone else was already taken!

Love begins with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
Ends with a teardrop

Some people are like slinkies. Not really good for anything but they bring a smile to your face when you push them down a flight of stairs!!!

The World Around Janie